Not Your Average Girl

I find long hair troublesome.
I hate pink stuffs.
I always laugh too loudly.
I hate troublesome stuffs.
I don't act differently in front of boys like most girls do.
I have intense passion for Music.
I hate liars.
I don't like cute little shiny stuffs.
I prefer Linkin Park to Jonas Brothers.
I love Mozart more then the stupid Justin Bieber .
I don't cry in front of anyone for personal reasons.
I cry my eyes out when I watch drama or read a sad book.
I don't stab my friends in the back.
I can't stand princesses.
I do stupid stuffs all the time.
I am scared of clowns and ghost.
I hate maths and history.
I always attract the weird guys.
I sometimes live in my own world.
I'm bad at counting beats in Music.
I go with the flow of my soul, not crowd.
I only make friends not enemies.
I have a personality that makes people smile.
I dare to do stuffs most girls don't.
I would stop and listen to the wind's whispers.
I would lie down on a grassy field.
I don't comb my hair.
I always remember to put on lotion.
I love perfumes.
I love trees.
I don't really like mountains.
I suck at racing.
I am stubborn.
I don't care what others think of me.
I am bad with children.
I interact better with animals then with humans.
I am not afraid of blood.
I can stand on chairs or tables to put things up instead of asking a guy to do it.
I can sleep 12 hours a day.
I fall in love with guys who plays music.
I run when I see lizards and ants.
I am not afraid of cockroaches.
I love lacey stuffs.
I think sky is the most interesting thing to look at.
I love the sound of tree leaves rustling.
I dream to be a bird.
I feel comfortable in darkness.
I am easy to talk to.
I like to lie on the floor and stare at the ceiling.
I hate girls who acts like princess and can't do anything without help.
I am too tall.
I have a bad temper.
I get sick easily.
I laugh when people fall down.
I am super lazy.
I have a disease called Procrastination.
I do everything myself.
I don't take advantage of others.
I speak out when I'm not happy with someone in his/her face.
I have low laughing point.
I love frying eggs.
I like sunset better than sunrise and I don't know why.
I hate swimming pool cause I know people pee in it.
I would rather spend the whole day playing music than sitting studying.
I am straightforward.
I can't even draw a proper apple.
I often pretend to be carpet on the floor with the dog.
I don't like passion fruit.
I love watching movies in cinema.
I don't believe in prince Charming.
I am not afraid of being stupid.
I prefer sneakers than heels.
I punched a guy in the face before.
I fell into the drain when my bike crashed. LOL
I hate sunny days.
I love cakes.
I don't like fishes. It doesn't matter if it's food or just pet.
I love broccoli.
I eat watermelon flavor lollipop.
I shout when I am frustrated.
I am quiet when I am angry.
I giggle to myself because I remembered something funny.
I like to imitate how drummers play drum.
I fell in love with Afiq's long silky hair.
I don't lie cause I'll go to hell.
I like to see how kids make a fool of themselves.
I hate hypocrites.
I am always me.
I will always be me.
I'm not your average girl.

The Last Song

The love song I sang at last night's performance,
That will be the last Love song I will ever sing for you,
From now on I will forget you and let go,
I will accept that we are not meant to be and move on.

Never again I want to look into your eyes to see someone else that meant the world to you,
Never again will I have to force a sweet smile on my face.
Let this be a lovely ending,
'Cause I believe someone will come into my life one day,
Someone that will make me shed only the happy tears, not the bitter ones..

Though it's so easy said then done,
But I will have to learn to do my best..

Understanding

Sometimes when I feel even lower then the ground,
I wish someone would come and give me a smile and say "It's alright, everything will be fine."

What do I do, when all I want to do is sit and cry? What do I do, when everything around me is falling apart? What do I do, when I'm breaking from inside out? What do I do, when my mask start to fail me? What do I do, when my eyes betray me? What do I do, when the one I love the most is just not meant to be mine? What do I do? What do I do? What do I do?

The process of letting go is what I must learn in Life... But I could never get why must it be you...?

3 Hearts

That one and only person I care with my whole heart,
Will always have another girl in his heart...

The one person who love me with his whole heart,
Will always have me wanting another...

Everyone is Breaking from InsideOut...What to do?

Progression

Every time my heart says
'Go ahead, just love him!' My brain would shook it's head and say, 'Are you sure about this? I don't think it's a good idea.' and I'll find myself answering. 'Yeah, not a good idea.'

Every time I managed to stop myself from falling for him, just how long and how much my heart can take?

My ambition, studies and musics are so important. Something like Love, I don't need it, I don't want it. Cause in the end we'll go back to the starting point, where everything hurts.

I do not have the confidence. I do not have the courage. I keep telling myself to forget it and move on and the harder I try, the more I think of him.

To have two people to fall in love at the same time, that alone is a Miracle. I don't think that Miracle belongs to me, I might as well walk away before it starts to hurt.

This is not a silly story of a girl's one-sided love story. This is a story where this girl learns to grow up. She'll just have to learn to put down the things you want the most in the world because that is just how life goes. She'll have to learn to let go of what doesn't belongs to her.

It hurts, this is why we all call it Love. It's unfair, that is why we all call it Life.

Tentang Kamu

Bagaimana? Bila akhirnya ku cinta kau?
Dari kekurangan mu,
Hingga lebih mu..

Bagaimana? Bila semua pernah terjadi?
Mungkin inilah, yang terindah...

-Bunga Citra Lestari-

...And as Time goes by, you'll find yourself incapable of crying even if you want to because you finally realized that you had No More tears left to shed..

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
I have 5 fingers,
And the middle one's for You bastard!

爱我的人为我付出一切...
我却为我爱的人

流泪,

狂乱,

心碎...

-爱我的人和我爱的人—游鸿明-

ElseWhere

It's like living a dream,
While I'm pretty sure it's reality.

I move like a ghost everyday,
Sleep is the only time I can find comfort.

Sway and drag through everyday's schedule,
Like a robot set on Autopilot.

In my work I'm unable to concentrate,
When people talk,
It's like listening to voices from under water.

Everything is so Blurry,
What the hell am I doing?

It's like standing at the middle of a highway in the middle of the night,
I can't see a things,
Only the headlights of cars and vehicles that shoot by,
I'm watching the world go by as I stand still on the ground.

Everyone has a Destination,
Everything has a Purpose.
What is the meaning of my existence?
I have no idea.

Everyday I'm going off to a war,
A deadly war between my heart and head,
With my rusty helmet and armor tightly strapped on,
It's another fight of no Victor nor Loser.