Confidence

There are times when I wish someone would come sit down and listen to me.

Listen to the words I never had the courage to say.

Listen to my worries I never had the guts to show.

Listen to my heart I never had the power to love.

Listen to my thoughts I never had the time to make people understand.

Listen to my cry and perhaps, maybe a little of my soul.

Time is going too fast.

The truth is I'm afraid.

I am so so so scared.

Every day I'm growing a little, Every year the number of my age is increasing.

I'm scared, so so so afraid.

Responsibility is getting Heavy.

Life is getting Unhappy.

Time is going too Fast.

I'm worry, so very worry.

Will I ever make it in life? Will I ever achieve my dream?

The money used every month for tuition and music is increasing.

I'm scared, I'm so so so afraid.

Dear mum and dad, will you be capable of giving me all these?

I'm worry and your hopes for me are HIGH.

Will I be able to make you proud?

I'm afraid of making you feel ashamed.

Without meaning to it had become a Stress another form of my Worries.

I'm sorry for being so Not Confident.

I am thankful for everything you make me today,

I am so afraid to disappoint you.

I will do my BEST and strive to be HIGHEST! 

But please understand that I'm not a genius.

A new year is arriving.

I promise I'll be good.

Next year will be my first step to reach out for my dream.

Will I make it?

I must give it my best shot.

It will be tiring, It will be very stressful.

I have only one chance, one chance to prove it all.

I am growing too fast.

I regret to see the world more clearly as days go by.

I feel envy when I see kids laughing,

I wish I can cry and laugh and whine and scream and giggle like them whenever I feel like.

I wonder where did the Honesty and Joy I had in my eyes went?

Just like kids I used to be carefree and happy.

Never have to worry about anything.

Everyday is pure Innocence and Honesty.

Life is a long road to walk alone.

Perhaps that is why Music, Love, Friends and Fate is invented.

But some people are meant to stay, some people simply can't, some had no more reasons to anymore, some will be by your side forever, some might arrive a bit late, some might hurt you, some heal your wounds, some make you cry while others smile and wipe away your tears and fears. 

Some show you courage and teach you wisdom. Some gave you love and break your heart. Some leave deep footprints in your heart. While some never meant anything at all.

A new year is about to arrive.

This year will end soon and a new beginning is going to happen.

I'm scared,

I'm so so so afraid.

Time to buck myself up!

Last year of school uniform days is coming.

It's time to take Life seriously.

It's now or never.

It's success or all over.