Lost

There are so many things hidden behind this chest of mine,
It feels like it's gonna burst anytime.

I want to express but don't know how,
I want to cry but no tears come,
I want to sleep but consciousness won't go,
I want to study but can't concentrate,
I want to run but I have no where to go,
I want to scream but can't find my voice when I open my mouth,
I want to talk but there is no one here to listen,
I want to think but there are just too many thoughts fighting for attention,
I want to have someone by my side but there is no one,
I want to smile but these eyes are betraying me,
I want to laugh but my heart is bleeding.

Dear heavy weight in my chest,
What are you? Where did you come from? Why are you here? When did you start existing and How can I help to make you go away?